Losing Edie is one of the darkest periods in my life. The phone call that I received on Monday night has forever changed my Life. Trying to keep Edie alive since Monday night has been with hope that something would change. Today at 2:30 p.m. my Sister, Edie Black has been taken off the ventilator. My family and I are trying to put back the pieces of this horrific act of violence committed against a beautiful woman.
Losing Edie
The death of Edie will be one of the most traumatic events of my life. Trying to function and piece together this horrific murder of my Baby Sister has me dealing with all sorts of emotions. Every day I would wake up in the wee hours of the morning phoning the hospital and speaking to the Nurse in the Intensive Care Unit. I was hoping to hear something positive but continued to hear depressing news that nothing had changed. I spent hours this week sitting in the Hospital squeezing Edie’s hand. Telling my Sister how much I love her. Nothing has prepared me for this day of hearing my Sister’s life has ended.
Accepting there is no “right” or “wrong” way to deal with this tragedy is something I’m trying to wrap my thoughts around. All week I’ve felt numb, disbelief and incredibly sad. Indeed, there are moments I’ve wanted to scream and am sure I’ve taken my disposition out on others. Meanwhile, talking about my feelings all week with close friends, medical professionals, family and most of all my Husband has been helpful. A lot of times this past week, I’ve had difficulty sleeping and eating. Also, my writing and reading has taken the edge off. In addition, I have found myself waking up in the wee hours of the morning multiple times all week. Of course, I have no appetite and when trying to read a magazine or book, I find myself reading the same page 10 times as my concentration is off.
Losing Edie will forever be with me. Of course, I will honor and cherish her beautiful smile, spirit and love each and every day. Having a beautiful relationship with my Sister was like having a best friend and soul mate for life.
Funeral Plans
Funeral plans are in the works for beginning of the week. My Sister Heidi, myself and my Dad will meet with the Funeral Director and Rabbi tomorrow.
In conclusion, I will continue to share my thoughts of losing Edie and dedicate my blog post to her in the upcoming days.
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