Remember Edie

Last Tuesday was a difficult day for myself and my Family as we buried Edie. In the first place, over 300 people came to pay their respect. Also, in the evening there were over 150 who attended the shiver. And, the next day, my husband and I were hosts for the shiver at our Home. In addition, over 30-40 people who came to pay their respect to Edie.

Remember Edie

Since that dreadful day two weeks ago, there hasn’t been a day that has passed that I don’t remember Edie. I find myself reaching for the phone wanting to call her to catch up.  I am sad that I will never have the opportunity to speak with her again. My heart has shattered in my chest as I continue to remember a life taken too young. Losing Edie through this horrific crime has been one of the most traumatic experiences I’ve had to deal with.

When my mother passed away, we dealt with her medical condition for 2.5 years. In this situation, we couldn’t adequately prepare which has left me in tremendous emotional pain and upheaval. Of course, the way my Baby Sister was taken from my life is very hard. So, all her plans we spoke about and her dreams are no longer possible. I want to remember Edie with the strength she showed in raising her boys during a difficult time in her life personally and professionally and hope to gain the strength from her memory as not a day has passed when I don’t remember Edie and all the conversations we had, our childhood memories and family gatherings.

This tragedy hasn’t made sense to me and I’m wrestling with this death on a daily basis. There are days I want to crawl into a dark hole and shut myself off from noise and phones ringing, however, I know my Sister would want me to gain strength and live each day to its fullest. Life doesn’t always make sense and the pain I feel today may lessen in days ahead, however, I will never forget this pain and I will always remember Edie and her beautiful smile and twinkling blue eyes.